“The Man Without”

5/1,7/18.
Written by: Victor P.
Fiction.

“The Man Without”

This house is standing
But my home is gone.
Oh, my feet are warm
But the floors are cold.

I’m standing still here
But my heart is sinking,
This emptiness suffocates,
This loneliness consumes.

Is it your whispering I hear
Or just a memory of you
Replaying in my mind,
Playing tricks on me again?

How long have you been gone?
I’ve lost track of new days.
I’m withering without you here
By my side, in my arms, love.

The smiles have fled, I am spent
Waiting, worrying, praying, hoping.
My happiness now only in memory.
Are you too dear for me to bear losing?

Poets have written better lines,
Lovers have shed greater tears,
Singers have sung sweeter songs.
Can aught of mine compare to theirs?

To whom or to what did I lose you?
How did this all happen and come about?
Am I at a loss to remember
Or just very quick to forget?

Am I forsaken here without reason
Or rightly left, punished for my wrongs?
None of this makes sense to me.
Is this just bad luck or my destiny?

Every time I hear your voice
I look around but see nothing.
You haunt me; are you dead now?
Or is this all just in my head?

I sit alone now with the lights off
Where we used to sit together.
I sit in silence where we used to laugh,
I sleep alone where we used to sleep together.

I can’t live on memories,
I can’t feed on reveries,
And I can’t live in the past
Or go back even for a moment.

How can I soundly sleep?
You still haunt my dreams,
You still fill my thoughts.
Will this be too much for me?

God knows I’m withering
And this is all my misery.
I just want you here again,
I’m not used to being so alone.

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“Mad World Note”

3/7/16
Written by: Victor P.

“Mad World Note”

It’s a mad, mad world out there, boy,
So many want nothing more than everything
That the world can give and they can take;
Always running, always chasing something.

You’ll reach out your hand to help them
And they’ll stab you in the back for it;
The helping hands of sinner-saints
Seem to mock hellbound sinners.

Every intention is interpreted,
Or rather misinterpreted, by so many;
All that’s considered altruism is a lie in the eyes of the blind
Who have never cared to care for anyone but themselves.

It seems a pessimistic conception of the world
And it’s sad to say it’s true, my boy, it’s true.
Who can make sense of a world so confusing,
Confusing itself and confusing its inhabitants?

Chase what you will,
Try to get your fill
But it just might kill,
No good will fulfill.

The sirens’ songs replay their old damning tune
And the fools’ feet draw them to their own doom.
The world’s a crazy place made worse by madmen;
We contribute to the problem by listening to them.

“Before You Were My God”

7/25/17
Written by: Victor P.

“Before You Were My God”

I remember the darkest part of me
Lashing out at the best of You, God.
My rebellion against You from inside a dark pit
Showed me what a fool I was without You.

Lost in the maze of self,
Led by my foolish pride
I found my own rule,
I made my own way.

I’ve been my own god,
I reigned over all of me,
A slave to sin with a crown of self,
A usurper with a false claim to the throne.

I’ve long known the emptiness
Of being my own god and king,
I’ve learned what misery it brings,
I’ve learned what company it loves.

You called me to something more
Than I’ve existed for
But I ignored it for years
Until the void nearly killed me.

Suffocating, choking on pride,
Self-afflicted couldn’t hide
From the light You showed me
Or the truth You’ve spoken.

God, You’ve deposed me,
You’ve dethroned me,
You’ve taken Your rightful place
On the throne of my heart,
I’m a dead false god and king.

I can’t say I’m a man after Your own heart yet,
I don’t know how to begin toward that.
Show me what I’m supposed to do
To get nearer to You, to be like You.

“Oh Brother, oh Sister, Rejoice in the Lord!”

7/26/16
Written by: Victor P.
I hope the words encourage you, brothers and sisters in Christ.

“Oh Brother, oh Sister, Rejoice in the Lord!”

If you feel weak, when you feel so weak
Remember that the Lord is your strength.
If you can’t rejoice in present circumstances,
Oh brother, oh sister, rejoice in the Lord!

When things seem out of control
Remember that God’s still in control.
When the world seems crazier than before
Remember that God’s still on His throne!

When everything seems wrong in the world and humanity
Remember that God will make everything right one day.
When there seems to be so much negativity around
Spread positivity, praise and rejoice in the Lord!

Rejoice in the Lord despite the darkness of the times
For He is your joy and your strength and your song.
Oh brother, oh sister, rejoice in the Lord your God
For He is you light and your hope and your life!

Bring your troubles, bring your pain to the Lord;
It’s difficult now but things will change, so rejoice in the Lord.
This life isn’t easy and problems are bound to come
But keep your head up, soldier of Christ, rejoice in the Lord!

God sees it all and knows the reasons for everything
But we don’t have all the answers so let us rest in His goodness;
We can’t discover all of the whys behind all of the tragedies
So let us trust in God’s perfect will and knowledge.

Let us rejoice in God now while we have time and breath.
Come now, brother, come now, sister, rejoice in the Lord.
It’s because of all that’s happening and all that we don’t know
That we need to trust in the living God and rejoice in Him always!
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Glory to God Alone.