Written by: Victor P.
“Before You Were My God”
I remember the darkest part of me
Lashing out at the best of You, God.
My rebellion against You from inside a dark pit
Showed me what a fool I was without You.
Lost in the maze of self,
Led by my foolish pride
I found my own rule,
I made my own way.
I’ve been my own god,
I reigned over all of me,
A slave to sin with a crown of self,
A usurper with a false claim to the throne.
I’ve long known the emptiness
Of being my own god and king,
I’ve learned what misery it brings,
I’ve learned what company it loves.
You called me to something more
Than I’ve existed for
But I ignored it for years
Until the void nearly killed me.
Suffocating, choking on pride,
Self-afflicted couldn’t hide
From the light You showed me
Or the truth You’ve spoken.
God, You’ve deposed me,
You’ve dethroned me,
You’ve taken Your rightful place
On the throne of my heart,
I’m a dead false god and king.
I can’t say I’m a man after Your own heart yet,
I don’t know how to begin toward that.
Show me what I’m supposed to do
To get nearer to You, to be like You.